Danse Macabre


Clawing at this padded cell
Contemplating suicide
Contemplating homicide

Music- the only thing that heals these wounds
Bloody, oozing and festering
So I sing along to a tune only I can hear
One that all the ‘normals’ fear

While I sing I contemplate suicide
I contemplate homicide
Still trapped in this padded cell
In the halls of my madness
I dance to the ethereal voices only we can hear

Walk with me into the realm of the unreal
Where our insanity makes sense
Can’t you hear the song/music calling?
You’re only a step away

So come with me!
Together we will contemplate suicide
Even as we sit in these padded cells [Let’s sit together in this padded cell.]
We will contemplate homicide

FEAR


A coiling snake in your chest
Driving you ever closer to your death
Stealing away all of your breath (all that’s left)
The air that’s meant to be mine
All parts of you- delicate and fine

Face your fears
Let them go
Fade away or let everyone know
There is no way to fake your way out of this
Checkmate – the only way out is forward
Your only escape

Scared
Everyone is so scared
Of the coming night; the face in the mirror
Of stepping out of this everyday routine
To let their thoughts show (let them all know)
To walk in the sunlight
To make a move

My identity lost forever in a sea of fear
Late at night
When all those unresolved feelings are brought to light
The voices- those that don’t believe in you, come to life

Lost in the face of this everyday routine.
Can’t face my own reflection
Don’t move, don’t react
If you don’t make a move you can’t get hurt

Lovers In The Ground


Six feet under and his heart still beats for her

A pale perfect bride

In a box and she still sighs at the thought of him

Strikingly thin and handsome in his dark suit

 

The mortician was her confidant,

He fixed her bouquet in her icy hands

Made her feel perfect for her groom,

Their family and friends wept in unison at their eternal union

Love last only as long as death

Forever is only as long as death.

Suicide Song


I

Suicide smiles

Hide the pain behind the lies

Hide the pain as your heart dies

Hate your life and it’ll be alright

Scream for help as they turn their backs

And you will turn my back on life

And we will turn my back on life

And I will turn my back on life

Somehow I don’t think they would cry at my funeral

II

Suicide is the background music to my life

An ever constant ringing in my ears

My subconscious claws at my sanity

Conscious mind force feeds me reason

And I’m left wondering how to escape from this war I wage against myself

III

Mediocrity is a disease.

It makes you cough and then you wheeze

At 1st you burn and then freeze

I think I’ve found a final cure to make us right,

To makes us ‘cool’

It hurts at 1st and then-

Never Again

IV

I’m trying to find my happy place- I think I lost it or maybe I never had it to begin with

Where did all the sunshine and rainbows go?

I’m looking for bunny rabbits, butterflies and cotton candy but instead there’s:

me all alone in the dark.

With that feeling that makes me wanna right a letter

and do that thing that’ll make it all better

Forever

Misery (Make a Move)


If misery loves company, then why am I always alone?

Waiting for you by my phone.

Keep me at hands length so that I can’t move on.

Stuck here- stuck to you- like quicksand.

Let me go

Because I can’t let you go

But I know your ego won’t let you

You’d rather we both drown; sink beneath the surface

Than face this world alone.

Enough I cry!

I won’t die for you

I never said would

I know Ive lied for you

Again and again

Until I have nothing left of me.

And that’s why I say no more

All I want is to be alone

To dig your claws out of my abused flesh.

Try to salvage the remains

To heal

And then revenge…

Blood Lover


 

This the 1st poem I posted on this Blog, for some reason I felt like posting it again. I dont think it got much attention back then

Blood Lover

 Bleed for me, my lover

Let me bathe in that delicious warmth

I claw at my thin dark veins

To bring forth crimson velvet

You want to tear, to feed, to let the inner beast take control

(and) I say be free

With me you’ll never have to fear

Feed that insatiable dark desire

Let the beast gorge, consume

Totally devour  me.

Universal Cure


I try, I swear I do

But it never seemed to go the way we wanted

I didn’t mean it, I swear it’s true

I only tried my best to hurt you.

We’re playing tug of war with feeling

And throwing bombs with words

We had it good they told us

We never saw the signs

 

You tried your best to hurt me

I swear my love it worked

We tried our best to end it all

To find a universal cure