Sometimes I let myself go
I feel everything fall away
And numbness spread all the way down to my core
All that’s left is the music
Torturous and unrelenting
Reminding me that behind the icy cool numbness there’s: rage, pain, sorrow.
Everything I can’t bear bottled up and thrown in my face
And behind it all is you.
It was always you and always will be.
That taunting laughter, that thin smile anything but warm…
Close my eyes and I can see your condescending glare
Shake my head and nothings there.
I’m on my own.
So I turn up the music
Drown in the chorus
Until it crushes my soul
Until my heart bursts